I remember growing up as a kid and arguing with my uncle about having “my turn” with a specific toy-the red Power Ranger action figure to be exact.
“It’s my turn to play!”
“No! It’s mine!”
In the end, he always got the win because I was the younger one and needed to be “respectful.” To this day, I’m still bummed on not being able to play with that red Power Ranger.
However, that day did teach me a valuable lesson on letting go. How although at that point in time, there was something I really wanted, I had to let it go in order to make someone else happy.
But then I grew up.
At this age in my life, being 17 and all, I learned that there are something I just can’t let go of.
I learned that letting something go isn’t always tangible.
And I also learned that letting things go, won’t always make me happy.
Take feelings as an example.
A feeling for a friend, family, or even a (ex)-lover.
I had two best friends during my freshmen year in high school. We were the tightest of friends-people even considered us sisters whenever we hung out together. But like they all say, “good things must come to an end” and that’s what happened. My two best friends who promised never to leave me-left.
I had no idea how to cope with this idea of letting them leave my life as if the past years with them had meant nothing.
But that’s where I went wrong.
Yes, letting go of my two best friends at the time was probably the most heart-breaking thing I had felt at the time, but I also remembered that even though I’m letting the two people I loved the most go-doesn’t mean I have to let go of the memory.
All the photos we took, all the volunteer work we did together, the pranks, the retreats, basically all the hours I spent with them didn’t leave with them.
They will forever be engraved inside my head, replaying like a little movie scene until the day I die. And every now and then, I like to pause the scene to make room for the other memories I have with my new friends. But the memory of the Amy and Tina will never be forgotten.
That’s when I learned, letting go isn’t always the best thing but it’s not the worst thing ever either-because sometimes you’re going to have to let go…..
to move on.