Dear Me

Dear Past Elaine,

You’re going to grow up and live a very trying life. Things are going to get hard and you’re going to want to give up every single day.

But don’t.

Once you overcome all those tough obstacles in your life, you’ll realize how all those experiences were worth it to become the person you are today.

I know it’s getting harder and harder to breathe.

I know you’re struggling on holding onto that last shred of happiness.

I know you’ve been crying in your sleep for the past few months.

And I know all these things has happened to you because I went through it and I’m alive.

Remember that time you lost all your friend that one year? You through something was wrong with your because never had you been so lonely?

Spoiler alert : You’re going to be blessed with knowing these certain people in your life later on.

Dear Future Elaine,

Never give up.

Know your goal and go for it, don’t procrastinate and “fuck it” through life because that’s just not how it goes.

Sure, take some risks every now and then with decisions but know a plan.

You’ve only got this one life to live, and you spent a good amount of it crying away.

You have this bright future ahead of you and I want to see you succeed. I want to see you smiling so hard your cheekbones start to feel intense pain.

You’ve gone through so much pain, your life is bound to bring you some content soon.

Please, love yourself. Learn to do so. Compliment yourself everyday. Smile at your complexion. And maybe one day, someone will love you the way you’ll soon love yourself.

 

 Dear Present Elaine,

I am so proud of you.

You’ve grown up to be someone I’d never thought you’d grow up to be. In fact, I even feared not too long ago that I wouldn’t be able to see you grow up. I’m so glad you didn’t give up.

Keep doing you, because being you is the best thing you can do.

Love,

Elaine H.